Inspiring Images

I saw Adam standing near the water. I was staring at his back while he was looking away from me and facing the ocean. I was on the swing attached to the tree in front of the house we were staying at.

I wasn't sure what he was thinking, I never was. He never told me how he felt. In a way he did but he never explained. He would tell me he felt upset but when I would ask him why he felt that way, he would shut down and turn the conversation another way. No matter how many times I would tell him he could talk to me. That I wanted to know what he had to say, he never told me. In a way it made me feel like he didn't want to be with me, that he didn't trust me enough. But if he would want to tell me, he probably would. I know I shouldn't push him so much, I might push him away.

A close friend once told me to worry about the quiet ones. That you never know who you are with. Now Adam had told me before that we were not together. Why was I spending so much time with this guy when he did not want to be with me? It made me question my own judgment.

I cry a lot, always have. About anything and everything. I would cry about him and whenever I told him that, he would tell me that he was sorry. Time and time again. I don't know why I would want to be with him when he doesn't want to be with me, but I do. I know it might not be easy and I know I will get hurt even though he wouldn't mean to hurt me. I still want to be with him because I love him and I feel like he is worth it.






I saw Adam
standing near
the water.

I was staring
at his back
while
he was looking away
from me
and facing the ocean.

I was on the swing
attached to the tree
in front of the house
we were staying at.




I wasn't sure
what he was thinking,
I never was.

He never told me
how he felt.

In a way
he did
but he never explained.

He would tell me
he felt upset
but when
I would ask him
why he felt
that way,
he would shut down
and turn the conversation
another way.

No matter
how many times
I would tell him
he could talk to me.

That I wanted to know
what he had to say,
he never told me.

In a way it made me feel
like he didn't want to be with me,
that he didn't trust me enough.

But if he would
want to tell me,
he probably would.

I know I shouldn't
push him so much,
I might push him away.




A close friend
once told me
to worry about
the quiet ones.

That you never know
who you are with.

Now Adam had told me
before
that we were not together.

Why was I spending
so much time
with this guy
when he did not
want to be with me?

It made me question
my own judgment.




I cry a lot,
always have.

About anything
and everything.

I would cry
about him
and whenever
I told him that,
he would tell me
that he was sorry.

Time and time again.

I don't know why
I would want to be with him
when he doesn't
want to be with me,
but I do.

I know
it might not be easy
and I know I will get hurt
even though
he wouldn't mean
to hurt me.

I still want to be with him
because
I love him
and I feel like
he is worth it.